ruins, framing, images and cnn

watching my boyfriend in the camera
and seeing him simultaneously on the set
he is not the same person
he is not his image
the one on the set i see directly with my eyes – he is mine, the one i know and recognize
the one on the screen is him, but reorganized, set up, framed, projected, and staged to sound the way – the best way he can
and then on cnn he sounds another way, the way the journalist wants him to sound
what remains is a ruin or a remnant of the one i’m in love with
a replica, a souvenir
a piece of (the berlin wall)
but it is not but a fraction of my love on that screen
i want the one at home, the one on my couch, the with sounds, odors, colors, angles- senses
and yet all of that is also only the way i’ve framed my vision, isn’t it?

figure of nostalgia

Jean-Auguste-Dominique Ingre's
La Grande Odalisque, 1814
Pre-Romantic (Neoclassical)
and overly realist.






The detail in her headscarf alone is stunning, but if you look closely ... Ingres added an extra vertebrae to make her slightly more beautiful to fit his idealized sense of beauty.